Thursday, October 16, 2008 ♥
Tikahsyg came my house at 10 in th morning (:
out from home at 4
and 8 at night ,met dearestgirlf ;yayah ~
problems after problems ;
sometimes i wonder ,why problems keep coming my way?
had told my 149 peeps tht im not gonna mix w them anymore
sort of breaking of friendship.
&now ,one of my dearest girlfs is asking for breaking of friendship
dearest jana ,sesungguhnya kaseh &tikah tidak pernah mengabaikan jana.
jana sentiasa kita anggap seperti kwn rapat
&seperti yg kaseh pernah katakan
,jana laa penyebab bibir kaseh sentiasa terukir dgn senyuman
&selalu ketawa bergembira.
dearestgirlf; jana ,said tht tikah is always w kaseh
dearestgirlf; zyzy ,said tht kaseh is always w tikah
why eh? why cnt tikah&kaseh be closed?
we were closed since end year of 2006; sec1 ,mind you!
moreover ,tikah jana zyzy &myself were closed when sec2 right?
so ,what's the problem now ,dearest girlfs? im confuse &stress up.
tikah&myself read kechyk's friendster
&we were so honoured tht we're still her girlfriend.
but next to our name ,theres a bracket saying tht we've changed alot.
next to jana's name ,theres bracket too saying tht jana's always in her own world.
next to muny name ,theres bracket too saying tht shes quited school
&next to lina's name ,theres bracket too saying tht she couldnt get over muny
&lastly ifa ,theres bracket too saying tht shes always busy w boyfriend. aduhhhh*
zyzy texted saying tht liya ,ayu ,jannah &others felt tht they've lost me
&they kept saying that
they're happy for me as i have acap w me now ; who always give me happiness. even fathulhakimKBS thought of that way too.
acap is a close friend of tai &tai is tikah's temantapimesra
&tikah is my bestfriend. im always w tikah &so do tai is always w acap.
&i swear ,theres nothing between me &acap. get it clear ,pretty please.
&to solely ex boyfriend ; im glad you dont feel lonely anymore
,you have your dearest besties. im happy if youre happy (:
goodluck for your future endeavours. &im sorry. i dont wanna meet you anymore.
if i were to meet you ,im just another girl who agrees to go out w you
&like you said the other day about wanting us to date each other?
im not gonna agree w that cause im not like other girls who dates w umpteen guys
; so cheapskate (:
currently im finding for a guy friend ,who will always be there for me
&someone whom i can call bestie :D
&if i were to have found one ,i'l make sure tht i wont fall for him cause i dont want to.
cause friendship is something i would treasure more than relationship.
&i'l make sure that he wont fall for me too ,haha!
maybe ive found one ; time will tell everything ,baby :D
results coming out soon ,i have no confidence in getting promoted to sec4.
its okay ,if i were to retain ,i believe that there is always next time
&i must never give up in life.
its true that first love cannot be forgotten. i guess ,breaking up is th right choice.
i cannot go on being att to hairulizwan anymore. i know ,i have to move on.
those sweet memories will fade one day ,i hope. however ,it is still fresh on my mind.
the break up was all caused by me ,i was wrong all along.
hairulizwan is someone who is impossible to find.
he is someone who always care for me ,who loved me whole heartedly.
who nvr fails to motivate me in studies. who never get bored w my sucky attitude.
who always entertain me w my nonsense.
th only one who will never scold me when i complain about how sucks life is
,how unfair life is ,how difficult to live life in this world
&how bored studies is.
th only one who can tolerate w my horrendous attitude.
eventho ive broke up w hairulizwan
,i still feel tht im th luckiest girl on earth getting him as a boyfriend ,now he's my ex.
if not because of jealousy ,i guess we're still together happily.
few days more to our 11months. its okay kaseh ,be strong alright.
hairul is happy now ,kaseh must be happy too
kaseh ,please smile ,smile like youve always did last time :D
all i hope is not to run away from problems
but to make problems running away from me
; how wonderful my life would be eh! (:
&now ,ive promised myself to change ,change for th better.
be a nicer girl &a goodgirl w good habits (:
&NEVER to skip prayers for unvalid reasons ,anymore :D
&i hope tikah will change her mind in getting rid of me
just to satisfied others' feelings.
tikahbby ,its no use. we were close friends since last time
& so theres no reason for you to stop being my dearest friend :D
iloveyou &will always do ,syg.
im missing everyone ,now.
i guess one day ,is a must for tikah jana gayya lina kechyk ipa muny
&myself to talk things out.
thanks for reading ,my dearest readers :D
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