Wednesday, January 14, 2009 ♥
im not being sarcastic or finding faults here.
see! what goes around ,comes around.
it seemed like shes gg through what i am gg right now.
now she knows ; how hurt it is to be left by someone she really loves.
but as for me ,it hurts much more to see other girls in my situation.
; being left by someone they really love.
guys are guys. im starting to hate guys. idk why.
i know ,ive been confidently said that i wanna move on ,but then again ,
i'l still text exboyf every night just to wish him goodnight and ily.
you see ,how stupid kaseh is. i guess ,most of th time ,he was just 'layankan'.
whatever lah. i wont text you anymore. stress ah. bye.
two more days and i no longer using th number 942338** and im sorry
that i wont give you my new number. cause ive told you th reasons
; what's th point giving you my number when you actually wish to avoid me.
and your reason was ,future purpose? takecare ah. stress ah.
alasan tak munasabah ah. diam sudah. adui ~
ive been thinking of you so much ,that's why!
&it really is bothering me. im sorry if im abit harsh.
and today ,school was okay. yuda hidayat(!) *melts ,but sombong -.-'
he's from sec 2f ,15 years old ,an indonesian boy (: and two of my friends
are so crazy over him ,hahaha.
tikah brought a magazine and i found a nice phrase in it,
"i was already in too deep because when i thought of him ,his voice
,his hypnotic eyes, i wanted nothing more than to be w him" - Bella Swan ,Twilight.
Bestfriend! ; my handphone masih rosak lah ,sorry ): misses!
i hope youre doing great now! (:
Greatest friend! ; thanks fr being sucha caring friend! (:
Kawan rapat! ; am wondering ,hows you and th girl you told me
that youre in love w? hah ,all th best eh! (:
Goodfriend! ; oh i cant reply your text. i miss you tooo! hope youre doing great (:
to th four of you guys ,thousand of apologies for not replying your msges. misses!
may everyday turns out a nice day for y'all! jaga diri baikbaik (:
and to that one more guy (i dont think you'l be reading my blog ,haha) im sorry for also not replying to your msges. ive no idea how you know that im already single. hah. its so shocking to know that you still have th strong feelings for me ,since i was sec1 and you were sec 3. hah. that was like three years back huh? but im sorry. i have to reject. and trust me ,mum did ask me about you few weeks ago and you suddenly texted me. mcm kebetulan gitu. hahah. it has been so long since i last saw you eh? still th ______ i used to know? ; that goodlooking guy w a kind heart? hehheh , but sorry. let's just be friends!
you were th first one to make me feel that love is beautiful. when i was w you ,that was th happiest moments and ive always felt that i can never find another love like how ive found w you. you were everything that ive ever wanted. but then again ,you were also th first one to have broken my heart into shattered pieces ,to make me really in a v devasted situation ,to make me cry myself to sleep everynight ever since th day you left me. you gave false hopes ,you broke your promises. you come and go as you wish. you really treat this relationship as if it was a game. youre a guy who dont keep his words. in addition ,youre just a guy w no heart. ego! is really stupid of me to be still thinking of you and hoping for you to come back. why is it so difficult for me to get you out of my head and just forget about those memories? why can't you be th old hairul? i swear ,he was th most wonderful guy! but now? he's just th guy i hate th most and a stranger to me. youre my nothing. if only i could find a better guy than th old hairul. haish.
again ,im sorry if this post really hurts you. but ,just so you know ,it hurts me even more to be left by you. i hate you ; get that in you head eh. thanks for everything. goodbye.