Wednesday, February 11, 2009 ♥
dear classmates ,esp my dearest ♥nuruljannah.
im aware that im not a goodfriend. things have been real bad without tikah and yayah in school. i miss them much. i spent my time more w that special someone. actually not really lah. only during recess and after school only whuat ,haiya. but we're just friends ,you see. and i know that i have to spend my time w you classmates and that special someone equally. and once again im saying ,we're just friends. and about that used to be bestie of mine in school ,im sorry. we've not been talking to each other since last friday. i kinda miss talking to you. but you were th one who didnt talk to me. i tried to talk to you but it seemed like youre ignoring me. so ,there's nothing much i can do. and May is coming in three months time. im gonna miss that special someone real much ): anyway! tikah &yayah ,come back to school ,quickkkkkkkkk! ):
im not sure. i got th feeling that im gonna be in relationship for th second time ,soon! but im wondering ,how will my ex-boyfriend feel? ): does he mind? he's happy without me ,i know that. but ,will he be happy knowing that im happy ,w other guy? i know ,he's th one who left me. he doesn't care when i was in utter devastation ,he avoided himself from me. and now ,he told me that he'l be there for me ,(only!) after knowing that i have someone else in my mind(?!) but idk ,can i really move on? omg ,too many things keep running through my mind right now.
wondering whose my valentine? :P no one lah ,i have never celebrated valentines' day ,trust me. not even w ex boyfriend cause he didnt ask me out last year. hah. but im gg out this saturday (: w who? you wait and seeeeeeeeeee.
anyway ,i think its better to show love than confess love and some things are meant to be left unsaid. but actually it has been said ,like obviously. but then again ,ntah lah eh ,saya stress.
and today ,went bugis w ♥dearest izyan syahida or mostly known her as zyzy. only god knows how much i missed her (: and dear friend ,thanks for those advices. much app. sorry for th past. ily. xoxo. zyzy kata xoxo tuh hugs&kisses. beh kaseh baru tawu! hahha! so yeah ,i told zyzy that all this while ,ive been contacting someone ,only him. well ,that's true. and also ,i told zyzy that he's th only one on my mind right now. but zyzy knows ,that is so not true. actually ,im not sure lah. anyway ,zyzy knows me well. so yeah ,i think she's right (:
many unwanted things happened today. i was super stressed ,i tell you. th reasons were all mentioned above. special someone ,im sorry for saying that i dont wanna contact you for th time being. i take back those words ,alright? (: kita kan frienddd. hahha.
oh ,i woke up at 6.15am but idk why i was late to school today. i took my own sweet time ,i think. i wasn't really on a good mood. idk why. ive been thinking of things. and oh ,yuda juga lewat ke school tadi dan sempat saya berbual sama dia ,haha (:
ok ,assalammua'laikum.
