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Kaseh♥
;i dont smoke/drink/club, thanks for passing by my blog (:

Being in a relationship now is just a temporary thing in life.

"You can forgive someone almost anything but you cannot tolerate everything.
We don't have to tolerate what people do just because we forgive them for doing it.
Forgiving heals us personally. To tolerate everything only hurts us all in the long run."

♡ I don't want to be th first cause there will be second and third, i want to be th only one ♡

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Monday, June 29, 2009 ♥

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there's more pictures but blogger just dont let me upload manymany picturessss, how bad ):

its 7:39am right now. as ya'll know, school holiday has end. i didnt sleep th whole night, and im still very fresh right now. my eyes are still widely open. its very sad to say that i can't go school today as i have to quarantine myself till wednesday. i miss school, i really do. kay, actually not. i miss my friends, yup. i miss my girlfriends. i miss my boyfriends. i miss all ): im not sick, i wanna go school. i dont have swine fluuuuuuu, i wanna go school! aiyeeeer, hmph.

anyway, thanks nizam and wan for yesterday, had a greatime w you two. and nizam, i miss you already. *insert sad face*

yup, i was out yesterday w wan and nizam, met them at orchard. walkwalked and now, i got blisters on my leg ): and again, nizam agreed to camwhore w me. yay! kay nizam, i love you for that :P

i slept at 7am, yesterday. i was awaken by nizam's calls and messages -.- handphone tak habishabis vibrate, bah. pantang tau orang ganggu bila lagi tidur, hmph. woke up at 1pm, answered nizam's call and we talked. so yup, we met up around 5pm. by right, we planned to meet at 4pm but both of us(&wan) were late. tingtingting.

once again, thanks nizam &wan for th (yester)day. love you both. kay no, love nizam only (:

i can't ignore this thing, like forever. i just want you to stop talking about your past, cause it wont bring any good to our rship cause it'l just irritates and hurting me. i know you were talking to wan, not me. but dont talk infront of me lah, bah. purposely want make me angry, aiyer :@ (kaseh bingit kaseh bingit, haa haa :P)

and to whom it may concern; dont confident say nizam and kaseh wont last long, ming pai ma? *insert angry face* (kaseh marah kaseh marah, haa haa :P)

i still think that th relationship im having right now is kinda weird. idk why. you know, couples in love first then attached. but right now, it seems like, i got attached then i feel th in-love mood. im in love w nizam, my boyfriend eh? kay bye.

kawankawan kaseh kat sekolah comfirm lagi berdiri tegak, nyanyi lagu majulah singapura dan ambil pledge. hee hee hee. Peace! ^_^V

assalammua'laikum/may peace be upon you.



Monday, June 29, 2009 ♥

TAGS REPLIED. sorry fr th late reply, love ya'll. yay!

natasha; linked you. yay!

eeilaaFIQQ; haaha, ruffnang tuh apa? kaseh tatawu, heehu. ^^ um, sheila, th advices and all; thanks alot. sayang sheila sgtsgt (:kaseh pun tak sabar nak jumpa sheila on tues. tapi kaseh masih tatawu apa baju colour red nak pakai ): haiyaaak ~ i miss you(!) and oh, btl tuh, rumah kita tak jauh, bilabila boleh meet, yay! ^_^ sheila, thanks fr being there when i need, and always there to talk, i love you, yay!

boboy; thanks boboy fr th advices and all, much app. you takecare too alright, dont take drugs too. hee hee ^^

unknown; thanks alot, i will. you smile always too ^^

fiee; yessss, i also wasn't sure if th one i wave back was you. heh. and guess, it was really you! hehhheh ^_^

lala shyq; lalaalala, hello! ;D my email is callmekaseh@hotmail.com

nobody; taaak, awak tuh yg more comel, hehe :P

yati; my email is callmekaseh@hotmail.com, hehehh.

gal; th tittle of th song is, i also dntknow. but you can find at mixpod, 'tiger lily', hehheh :D

minmin; heeeee, long time nvr see you. i miss looking at your dimple! veryy cute :P and thanks fr tagging ^^

zara; i miss you more! i miss aida nadia too. nak jumpa! let's meet up soon, during school days? ^_^

radinariff; radin! heh, at last eh kaseh da ada tagboard, huhu. pizza hut? radin kata apa eh kat kaseh? haha, tak apa lah. kalau ada pun, itu semua kan joke. hehe. yay! jumpa kat school :D

nadia; yes! kaseh pun tk percaya dia nak camwhore nan kaseh. hehe. okaaay, kasi ans tau. i love you, yay! rindu nadia ):

puterinamirah; you rmbr? ah, malunya :P hehehe.

kwan pacarmu; he = nizam? haha, why can't believe he got me? and youre? (:

friend; oh baju tuh, i beli kat tamp :D

hakim; ini hakim mana? thanks, and i too hope that this rship wont be like lastime, nyeheh :P thanks fr tagging, tc friend.

haiqal; yay, my eyes abit potek so i wasn't really sure if that was you or not :D and heee, youre hot as always ehhh. haha!

dee; thanks baby, i love you ^^

elly; b! b! b! kaseh rindu elly juga, kay kita meet soon! school dh buka, hmph! ): loveyou!

favourite reader of yours; thanks love, thanks alot (: you be happy too, alright ^_^

sashaisabelle; hey sasha, i'l link you up :D

guest; thanks dear guest :D kaseh beli dress kat semarang kedai, hahha. ^_^

bloghopper (sdre); thanks awak, i will ^^

bloghopper; yes, true. its all a matter of time, haish. its hard to find th answer. but thanks love fr tagging me :D

wan kukuhead; i never knew that you actually know me, bah.

min; yes, got tagboard alrdy ^^

guess; still waiting for me? you're? and why?

minnie; thanks syg, loveyou!

a firend; youre right, what you said were totally right. you actually understood me, eh? (: its true about you saying th 'small crush' thingy, but that was for th first 2wks being w him. its gonna be a month in days to come. love is growing, i hope? hee hee. im tryna be strong right now and i know, i have to accept all th bittersweet in my current relationship ;D and thanks dear one for tagging, much appreciated (:

izah; hey pretty, you'l be linked soon ^^

passerby; yeahyeah, callmekaseh@hotmail. but i dont online that often (:

lysha; who fatimah?

zaza; yes, its difficult to find a MAN. hahaha. takecare, love ^^

passerby; thankyou, you :D

frizzledline; viewed, and thanks, hehheh ^^

natasha; will link you up, yay ^^

reeeader; thanks reeeader, thanks fr understanding, are you ,are you one of my friends? or someone i know? rightright? kay, was just guessing ^_^

fafa; thanks love fr tagging, but still, i have to accept. trying to improve this rship (:

tizzy; thanks dear for tagging, hee hee. yup, youre right. takecare alright :D

kaliesa; kaliesa sweetheart! :D i will cheer up and thanks fr tagging. love you, jaga diri juga okay syg ^_^

bellashalina; alright, i will. thanks love fr tagging (:

ahyeeen; okay kaseh akan, thanks ^^

lala shyq; thanks love for linking me, i hope ive made th right choice fr continuing this rship ;D

queen; thanks awak, saya tgh cheering up ni, heheh ^^

mimi; btl tuh, syg mimi juga tau! :P

guest; blog merepek? jap, awak tgh baca eh ni skrg ni? kalau tgh baca, awaaaak merepek. pergi masuk blog merepek, apa pasal? ^_^
jaga diri, hee hee.

guest; alright, i'l post my days as many as i can, hee hee :D

allysia; hello ally, hehe. i look old eh? ): haha, will you up soon. hee.

guest 0; i think he deserves better cause im afraid that i wont be a good girlf. haiyaaak. thanks dear.

daily reader; haha, i look old? ): haha. thanks, will post more ^_^

naddd; okay kaseh link, tuh lah, lama tk nmpk. hee hee ^_^

hyraah; hello hyraaah! heheh. awak cute, as always ^_^

aida; baby baby baby! true kan b tuh motto! hehe, cepat jumpa, rindu nih. hmphhhhh.

aydaa; callmekaseh@hotmail.com, hee hee.

hawerr; kay, nnt saya link awak :D

farr; comel lah farr ni, hehe. yes, i will follow my heart (: sayang far! ilyt, yay!

shasha; kay, will link you up. yay ^^

nurul passerby; oh bella, i know i know. hehe. same probs? ouch, it must really hurtful for you, cause that's what i feel. one day, we talk about our probs alright, and will link you up soon (:

ira; i know trust is th most important thing in rship, but that's th hardest thing for me, i can't trust guys ): ira dh situasi sama, kenapa? ira okay? (:

anna aida; yes, that's true, life is never fair. thanks fr tagging, love you!

isyaa; harapharap begitu, hee. thanks fr tagging, love awak!

irra nadyhar; betul tuh, (: tryna be strong right now, hehe. loveyou!

riqa; riqa syg! hehe, syg riqa sgtsgt. thanks fr th advices, love. and betul katakata riqa, "kita harus melalui detikdetik kecewa sebelum menghadapi masa-masa gembira" tapi mcm tak adil gitu, haish. ntah lah, kaseh kena bersabar aja ): tapi kaseh rasa, kaseh cuba terus kan aja perhubungan ini, insyaallah pekara yg kaseh inginkan akan terjadi, syg riqa! (:

passerby; kaseh sudah delete fs (:

guess ?; er, are you th guest who tagged me recently about still wating for me? youre? hmm.

oshin; oshin sweetheart (: yes, thts why. im trying to understand myself. hmm, anyway thanks love for tagging and th advices, much app (: chat soon on msn ^^

friend; i think i know you, hee hee. alright, i'l follow my heart. thanks love for tagging (:

zuzul; jahaat ehh. slenga slenga pun, kekasih lama zuzul :P haha!

tuty; haaaha, yeah sure. yok meet on day. haha, tuty, i like you. ok, i sounded so wrong :P i mean, you look sweet, like seriously. i like (:

lydia; hey lydia sweetheart. thanks fr tagging,love and th advice, thanks alot :D smile always, grgeous ^^

guest; haha, so cute. i think so, too? ^_^ but its all too late i guess? th only thing i can do now is to improve th rship im having right now (:

hairul; apa wei wei? beri lah salam ke apa, aiyer ~ a'kum! ;D

passerby; thanks dear passerby :D i will cheer up, yay ^^

guest; haha, tk cantik pun tk apa :P hehe, awak comel.

eenah; eeeh eeeenah! hehe, kay nnt kaseh link. hehe.

nana eldyana; okay syg, kaseh will always be happy. you too okay! ;D

nadia; alright love, i will. missyou!

passer; i will, thanks fr tagging ^^

nini; hey nini love, i will :D

aifqah; i will, hehe. smile always juga! :D

syabilla; thanks fr linking me up. hehe ^^

guest; thanks, i hope i can. you tc too :D

sunshine; seen me before? hehe when was tht? and oh, thanks love for tagging and do add me up on msn, we can share probs, if you dont mind, since you say we're in th same situation :D tc dear.
minmin; hello you, long time never see. miss looking at yr cute dimples. hehe. thanks fr tagging, love. see you around (:


takecare, &assalammua'laikum/may peace be upon you. yay! ^^



Sunday, June 28, 2009 ♥

HAPPY SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY, DEAREST FARZANAH AND HAZIQ.
may happiness always be w th both of you and smile always. sayang you two, yay! ^^

(why cannot upload picturessssssssss?)


assalammua'laikum/may peace be upon you. yay!



Saturday, June 27, 2009 ♥









(pictures w dearest friends will be uploaded soon;
bella&zai, upload quick! :P nola, take your time, hee hee ^^ )

hi, im confuse, im not sure what am i thinking of right now. wake up, kaseh. wake up. i feel so guilty, i feel so suckish, i feel so wrong, i feel so pentingkan-diri-sendiri, i feel bad, i feel.. too many feelings in me right now.

okay let's talk about my day. well, it was okay, enjoyable i should say and way better than yesterday, like ofcourse(!) -.-

i hate yesterday, and guess what? i ask for a break up. duh, ya'll should already known about this cause everything was mentioned in my previous post, heeeha. but my boyfriend said that its not easy for him to let me go. and his sweetalks all came out (hee hee, sorreh baybeh) after much thinkings, i decided to just continue this relationship and hopefully, this relationship can be improved, may god willing. heeha. let's just forget about th past and tomorrow will always be a better day, yay.

notice th, "my boyfriend said that its not easy for him to let me go"? ah, if only my exboyfiend said that to me last few months ago. stupe froggy. ahaaaa, nah lah. action je. peace baybeh! ^_^V
i feel so bad but at th same time, i feel so stupidddddd. dingdong. dadidu. booboo. k, bye. i wanna have to change my blog songs, soon.

tomorrow is dearest farzanah's and haziq's birthday. and today was like a birthday gathering, eh? i think so. heehee. i was supposed to meet them at 3.30pm at tanah merah but i finished dressing up only at 3:28pm, best eh. nyehehh :P reached there around 4, and guess what? i wasn't late, i waited them for ten minutes. so happy, i wasn't late. so happy, im an early bird. hee hee. so yeah, train-ed to cityhall and had lunch at pizzahut. nampak mcmcm orang ini hari, k yay!

after which, walkwalked at marina and coincidently, (coincidence lah sangat -.-) my hottie was also at cityhall. he was w wan, nick, yana &huda. while waiting for my dearest friend, zazaaai.. i met my boyfriend and we talked. yes, talked. really, we talked. he talked about yesterday's story. adui ~ and yay, he agreed to camwhore w me. nizam, i love you for that. yay!

i then trained to bugis and met my friends back, they wanted to shisha. so yeah. but they can't, so sad. th law, th law, th law, so bad eh. and aww, i sawwwww arie, arie, arie, yay! :P

and thanks zara for calling me up and asked if im okay or not, i love you much. and oh, my dearest taggers, im okay :D thanks fr tagging and your care and concern, plus all th advices. love ya'll.

as time passed by, one by one went home. first was farz and mat, then bella and imraan. thus, i was th only girl w six guys. in other words, im like th rose among th thorns. peace! ^_^V sorry friends for not homing w ya'll. and yeah, walked to cityhall w boyfriend and wan. boyfriend purposely asked me to skip two trains and so, i took th third one. cause th second one seemed to have alot of hotties who boarded that train :P :P sadded, th third one got no hotties for me to eyecandy on. hee hee, sorreh. peace baybeh! ^_^V

nadia called and talked about some stuffs. i was like (o.O?!) gituk. hee hee. i dare to swear, im th type who will smile everywhere i go, or to anyone who passed by me or to any strangers (excluded th minahminah cause they look so fierce, please. bukan tak suka atau apa, kaseh takut. dorang muka fierce, hee haa. kaseh kental :P and yes, i dont smile at random guys. takut dorang fikir apa pula kaaan ^_^ and to whom it may concern, why on earth i want to jeling at you? haa haa. firstly, i didnt know it was you until you have walked passed me, then nizam tell me. and i dont think i really looked at you cause if im not wrong, you were like putting your hands on your face. senang kata, tutup setengah muka gitu kan? but i did looked at your friend and i smiled sincerely at her. sadly to say, she didnt reply my smile at all. aiyerr. but th main thing i wanna say now is that i didnt jeling at you, sungguh tk tipu tk bohong tk dusta tk bedek ^_^

im happy and feel so satisfied that i actually blurted out all my feelings to boyfriend. not all, still got alot. just that i forgot to say at that period of time, sucha waste! haa haa haa. anddddddddddd again, i dont flirt eh eh eh. baaah. and talking to my guyfriend(s) is so not flirting, boo. i hope, i wish, i pray that one day i'l change my mind and will start having trust on you. its just so difficult to trust guys. never in my whole life, i have ever trusted any guy who have/had came into my life. tingtingting. and please change, please. or you have changed, eh? dont flirt anymore, never treat this relationship like how you've treated your past relationships; never faithful! boo. and bah, i dont believe w th sentence, 'once a cheater, always a cheater.' dont make me change my mind to believe that sentence is oh-so true, okay love?

i read your blog. no one is perfect, baby. im not perfect, and i do have my flaws too. and my love, let me be th one to love you and your blemishes. i hope, i wish, i pray and i believe, th feeling of (real) love will eventually come one day, one perfect day. perhaps, i was born to say 'i love you' to you? im starting to have th feeling of afraid that i might be losing you in future to come. i pray, that will never happen. but if one day, we were meant to be separated.. you gotta believe that my love for you were for real, never a lie.

its time to let go of what i really have to let go. no point dwelling on it, still. yay! new love, new life.

okay, read back th first paragraph. th feelings came about cause i think, history really is repeating. goshygoshy. firstly.. nizam's ladyfriends/besties.. tell me honestly. am i th reason why ya'll have to stop contacting nizam? am i th reason why ya'll have to stop having late night calls w him? am i th reason why ya'll have to stop getting friendship hugs or maybe er, (friendship kisses) from him? am i th reason why ya'll just have to stay away from him, or have to argue w him, or have to feel th heartpains or whatever bad things it is. kay, i have no idea what am i blabbering about right now. dadidu. tingtingting. dingdong. kay, im feeling so mundane right na na na *sad face* im here just to apologise, ive tried asking him to let me go so he can have th life he used to have. but he refused to do so. baaaaah, this reminds me of my oh-so-very-hurtful past, benci please.

second reason why th feelings all came about was because i think, i ditched many guys. no, didnt. just that, it seemed to be that way. but no, i didnt. *slap myself* my heart is meant for only one, not three, four, five and so on. im sorry and please give me th chance to be faithful. give me th chance to stick to only one. stop making me feel so guilty. and i dont believe in 'i'l wait for you'. stop hoping for me, im bad. find a girl which is way better than me. and to another you, stop saying that i dont understand you. what should i do so that you'l say that i understand you? entertain your loveydovey words? how else can i make you understand that im attached, why can't we be just friends?

to another you, youve been sucha great friend. go and get a girlf, cause youre one sweet guy, th sweetest i guess? (: and we shall just continue being just friends, its better that way. there must be a reasons why some words are meant to be left unspoken. im sorry if i seem as though im playing hide and seek w you. you'l always be my dear friend, eventhough we dont talk that much, but when school reopens, i'l always be there, not sitting far away from you. i hope you get what im tryna say (:

i seee many types of guys in my life. th desperates, th never give up, th sweetalkers, th lovable, th willing to do anything just for love, th irritating, th very borrring, th sincere, th very self-centered; egoistic, th very talk big, th very generous, th very stingy, th very not gentleman, th very gentleman, th step cool, th very macam faham and so forthhhhh. how can i not feel wrong if someone who has waited for you for so long is still waiting for you, before you got attached to your first and still wating even after you have attached to your second. and another one, who never give up, keep texting each and every single day, forcing to talk on th phone, wanna meet up and all. i feeeeeeel th bad-est girl in th whole wide world. i tell you readers something, do you know that i was confronted of playing w guys' heart since primary six? boo, itu zaman ambil psle -.- yes, i was confronted by 3guys, i guess? i feel like laughing right now, so funny. and my used to be bestfriend, yana was there when th guys were confronting me. i cried know. hahaha. i got attached only when i was sec2, during november. before that, i was named heartbreaker by friends. till now, i still think its hard to find a real guy, what i meant was, my mr right guy. haaa haa. ah shut up, i love khairunizam, yayyay ^_^

its 6:23am right now, im yawning. im hungry and i can't sleep.
and tags will be replied soon, loveloves.

asslammua'laikum.



Friday, June 26, 2009 ♥



Real Eyes Realise Real Lies.

i beg you, let me go. i know, you've been trying your best to save this relationship. but i can't stand lies and unfaithfulness. yknw, i used to love(d) you so much, but th feelings faded when i heard something about you but you never admit your mistakes. i tried to ignore what i saw and what i heard. and th fact was, i can never stop loving you and w that, youre forgiven. ive been pretending like nothing's hurting me, and been faking a smile. you compliment girls, youve been talking about your past girlfs, its not really about jealousy but i was wondering, do you know that im actually hurt? i know, ive changed after th day i knew that youre not faithful. im sorry for all my wrong doings and my sarcasms. i have never trusted any guys in th past and now, i thought of changing but how do you expect me to trust you? its just so difficult, love. why isit so hard for you to let me go but its so easy for you to fool me?

now then i realised th difference between love and th desire of wanting someone.

i read my message history on msn, messages on tagged, messages on facebook, some blogs, inbox messages, i realised that ive hurt umpteen guys. but, i have no intentions of doing so. i cant make everyone happy if i myself didnt feel th happiness. if only they understand th reason why im trying so hard to ignore them after they had confessed their feelings. if only they understand why im trying real hard to avoid them after they gave hints about their feelings. i dont want to be accused of giving false hopes, that's all. im not being arrogant by not picking up calls or not replying text messages but im attached and i wanna stick to one, i dont want to contact other guys. deplorably to say, im not appreciated at all, never.

call me heartbreaker, call me whatever you like.

ive done alot of mistakes in th past. ive tried to change for th better. but th current problems im facing didnt give me th chance to do so. i didnt mean to control or not to give freedom. i just need you to let me go and after that, you can have back th life you used to have; late night calls w your besties/ladyfriends, friendship hugs, (&friendship kissses?). and even now, you still have your late night calls w them right? by all means, i have never assumed things anyhow or neither do i have accused you in any way. you lied, you lied, that's all on my mind right now.

th past is still haunting me, i hate this part. i see guys who never give up, trying so hard to achieve what they want eventho they're being ignored. i feel bad. i have no other choice. but why? why th one i love th most seems to ignore me? not one, not two, not three but many asked me why i got attached when im still hoping for that one, only one? even my current love asked me that question. and i just realised that ive been lying to myself. and ive been making decisions without thinking. i feel so dullard, please.

and right now, i just received a text message from love. im still thinking if i really want to go away from his life. will i regret for making that decision? im wondering what are th actual reasons? i believe, we can still improve this relationship but i just dontwant, idk why.

"im one lucky guy, how can i let you go just like that?"

is that th reason why you dont wanna let me go? baaaah. i dont know if i should believe if your love for me is true or not. i hate myself cause i can never differentiate between sweetalks and real words that came from th sincere heart. pudding head, me. stupid, me. dolt, me. dullard, me. baaaah.

"its just that whether u want or dont want to start trusting me but you dont want cause you thought every guy is the same. i may have a common thing with your ex, sorry to bring this up. but i dont go around texting or calling gals. even on msn, nah."

trust you, should i? sorry, you deserve a better one ): ily, love.

im lost, so lost. im lost, so lost. im lost, so lost.

assalammua'laikum.



Thursday, June 25, 2009 ♥

TAGS REPLIED :D love you all!

nadiaaah; youre welcome, sweetey. hee hee ^^
aishah; hahah, cutenya aishah :P sama lah kita, samasama poteeek :P hee hee.
blog-hopper; sorrysorry, i frgt to see th name of th salon. but th salon is next to th massage place, (:
kikimeow; hello love, youre linked! heee ^^
redlyme; hey hi, visited &linked! ^^
mai; sorry mai. kaseh ptg tidur, tapi kaseh kt bedok juga jam 7. teman mak g ntuc, haha! (:
shah aliya; thanks awak fr th compliments ^^ hehe.
mimi; hehe, terimakasih mimi (: insyaallah, akan lastlong ^^ oh cancan! kalau gitu, kaseh syg mimi bnykbnyk too okay :D heh!
eeeilaFIQQ; ehhh, sheila syg! pandai, tawu je kaseh pakai silkygirl :P hee hee. tk sbr nk jumpa next tues! yay :P
passer-by; hmm, my face not clean lah darling. haha. im starting to use biore and yes, i use silkygirl compact powder (:
Dayah; hello dayah, alright sweetie. nnt kaseh link ^^
bloghopper; bloghopper! i asked my mum and she said, th org kahwin is my father's side (:
fc; visited (: hee hee.
ABCD; updated (: fans? where got, hee hee ^^
fadd; ye saya, saya pergi minggu depan :D hee hee, kesian awak. usah hiraukan spammers tuh, dorg jahat :P
hairul; dh update lah katak :P
tuty; no no, tuty lagi sweet (: hehe.
mira; hello mira, mira mana tuh? (:
hairul; banyak lah kwn yg membaca je. padahal bnyk peminat. katak betul :P
LALA SHYQ; alright, will link you up ^^
efaah; hello efaah, oh hee. thanks fr tagging dear one ^_^
aku; hello, thanks fr th compliments, love (:
nobody; haha, cara awak tag sungguh comel lah :P i admire you too, kay ^^ hehe! kay, i'l post more pictures :D
guest; haha, and we love each other :D i didnt use facial wash for 2months alrdy and now, just starting to use biore (: pimples? gottt! haha.
fafa; thanks fafa dear, hee ^^
girl; oh thanks, i got it at blogskins.com (: hee hee.
qiqiyourstruly; okaay sweets, will link you up. (:
passerby; thanks dear one :D
boystar; okay, nnt saya link awak (:
H; oh baju tuh, beli kat tamp (: hehe.
Adalia; haha, i like your name :P and oh, i buy clothes at any shops. (:
reeeader; hehe, awak comel :P thanks awak ^^
glamourmeow; haha, best ke? :P
crim della crim; visited, hee hee ^^
erny; eh cute lah awak, okay nnt saya link ^^
nisyaaa; okay darling, bolehboleh. nnt kaseh link nisha.
mi; hehe, updated! (:
noramira; hee, insyaallah. thanks syg (:
nadiaaah; hee, thanks dear (:

assalammua'laikum.



Wednesday, June 24, 2009 ♥



i just realised that ive not been updating my blog for days. hee hee, sorry! ^^

monday; i was supposed to go study w sister and her friends, at nyp. jauh lah kan. on that day, i slept at 7am and sister woke me up at 8am. so i canceled off th plan of going study cause its like no point, right? how to study when i am so sleepy, not enough sleep. nothing will absorb gitu kan, aiyer ~ sorreh sistaa, loveyou :D was at home th whole day, makantidur makantidur ^^

tuesday; th picture above (w my dearest mum) was on tuesday, last minute plan to tanjung pinang w parents and two aunts. kakak action, tak mahu ikut. ergh! mum woke me up at 6am.

mum: *switched on th light* kaseh, bangun!
kaseh: 5minutes!
mum: *after five minutes* kaseh, bangun!
kaseh: kaykay, five minutes.
mum: kaseh, dah 5minit, bangun bangun.
kaseh: kay, kaseh bangun. jap eh bu, 5minit lagi, last.
mum: *after 5minutes* nurkaseh, bangunnnn. (bila lagi marah, mesti panggil full name -.-)
kaseh: *lihat jam* laaa, awal lagi ni bu, ferry kan bertolak jam lapan suku.
mum: iye la, tapi kau mandi lambat, nak make up lagi, lembab. bangun!
kaseh: kalau tknk bangun?
mum: nurkasehhhh!
kaseh: alaaaaa. kaykay, nak bangun ni.

unexpectedly, i saw goodlooking guys at tanjung pinang. winkwink ^^ mum cheated my feelings! hmph. promised to buy me manymany things there and when she got to know that th last ferry is at 4pm (on weekdays), she told me that there's no much time left to shop my things. punya lah kecewa saya, adui. beli barang kaseh comfirm time last last gitu. beh tak sempat lah pula. i was sulking (like of course!), and mum hates whenever i sulk and she'l definitely say, "kaseh kalau nak benda, matimati nak eh. kalau tk dapat, merajuk!" hmph. mum then managed to soothe me by saying that she promised to shop wimme at singapore. singapore? okay loh, much better :D

sesungguhnya, saya tatawu ada cowokcowok ganteng juga di sana. fikirkan yg gantengganteng di jakarta gitu, kayak cowokcowok di sinetron gitu kan, hehheh. tanjung pinang pun adaaa ^^

the foods, ah! delicious baby. i like. ive gained weight! hmph. but i had a greatime there. :D

family and i almost missed th last ferry, bah. and that means, we were th last one(s) to enter th ferry. yup, and when i entered th ferry, th first thing that caught my eyes was this guy. idk why, but i think he looks familiar (and kinda cute). winkwink ^^

i was asleep in th ferry. and when i woke up, i looked at th place where th guy sits, he wasnt there! he was upstairs, enjoying th air lah kan. to go up, he must have walked past my place. i couldn't imagine how i looked like while sleeping, comfirm buruk -.- malunya! thenthen, i turned my head to th back and i saw th guy melalui tingkap pintu. tingkap kape? actually not window lah, some part of th door was transparent gitu. ah, understand understood lah kay? heh! then he walked to th front to take some drinks, i guess. then, apa lagi eh? oh, yup he walked back, past my place to go up again. he looked at me, i looked at him. and like so sudden, we smiled? ha ha. idk who started to smile at who first. ha ha. when th ferry had reached singapore, i was wondering why th guy was still upstairs. i didnt see him. so i just walked off and when im out of th ferry, i saw him outside, sitting. mcm ajaib gitu ni anak, ha ha. bila masa dia turun? or i was sleeping again? -.- bah! we smiled again ^^ and when i was wating for th cab, i saw him again. haha. hilanghilang, nampak balik gitu kan ^^ but he looks really familiar lah, siapa eh? hmm.

i saw someone at my voideck. i didnt know that he was my (bestfriend?) -.- lain kali pekik nama kaseh, deng! hee hee ^^ dah tawu mata kaseh potek, beh ckp kaseh action tak senyum, grrr! :P

th minute i reached home, i switched on th tv and watched anugerah. yessa, hydir's going to th next round. yayyay *happy* dan dia yang paling teratas lagi :D dan amaciam ize suliman boleh keluar? ): haiya! next week going anugerah agaaaain bersama sheila dan rakanrakannya :P

eh wait, im going back to school on wednesday tau! not monday, yay. why? cause my teacher says so, hehe. Actually th reason was because there's swine flu at indon and i just came back from tanjung pinang, so im not allowed to go school on monday and tuesday gitu (:

i want to go thailand, please mummy? eoy kay? nak shopping! but mum wants to go serawak. serawak apa laaah ada eh. aiyer ~ idc, nak go bangkok juga! ):

wed; i was supposed to go study w mai and min. but my stomach hurts, and my time were mostly spent in th toilet. bah! -.- i kept complaining to mum, "bu, sakit perutttttttt." i had diarrhoea two times, this week tau! irritating! sorry mai and min ): i feel bad.

oh, two guys came to my house today. settled some things w my dad. if im not wrong, duadua mat motor, ha ha. they were talking about some bike stuffs, yup. yg baju hitam itu, cute ^^ dad told me that his serving ns now, staying at (woodlands ke angmokio? i lupa) and th name is hairi. ha ha ha. ok da.

in th evening, when my tummy's alright. accompanied mum to bedok and bought durians. yay!

story mcm panjang gitu eh, sampai ketemu lagi! ^_^




assalammua'laikum.



Wednesday, June 24, 2009 ♥

TAGS REPLIED! *sayang all!

mira; thanks! heeehe.
passerby; hey passerby, thanks :D
guest; thanks darling. i love you too, can? ^^ um, i didnt use any facial wash. hahaha.
nobody-guess; i agree w you (:
wanie; okay nnt link. haha! rmbut makin pnjg? extension lah syg, nk buka extension ssssooon!^^
nysa; callmekaseh@hotmail.com, hee hee ^^
queen; i'l link you up, pretty. and sarung cincin? haha. i lupa i tag you psl tuh. slenga kan kaseh :P
guest; first, i dont go for looks. second, i think my current bf is hot. and true, zul &hairul is hot too (: third, youre somehow right, im not as happy as i used too but i do had my bad times too when i was w zul and hairul. and psst, i never get att to zul but yes, we did loved each other. that was th past. and now, i cant possibly said goodbye to nizam cause i dont want him to think that im treating this relationship as a game and yes, i feel awkward tho w this curent relationship. but still, i love nizam! (:
julie; hehe! hello julie! ini hp temporary kaseh, kaseh tatawu hp apa ini tapi dia nokia (:
yanna; thanks, yanna tuh yg chantek gilaa! :P
guess-sha; hehe, kaseh tatawu ini lagu apa. kaseh nmpk kat mixpod, pastu namanya 'tigerlily' hehheh ^^
boystar; lelaki bintang! ^^ cmne nk link kalau awak tk tinggal kan blog url awak? (:
amirah; hello dear one, thanks. tapi tk lawa laah kaseh! (: cancan, i'l link you up too (:
-; heh, thanks. but my sepet's way cuter. ^^
iziirana; hello you, thanks but i extend my hair lah dear, so its not really that long ): hee hee.
guest; thankssssss :D
fadd; tuh lah, orgorg skrg. holiday ini buat lah kerja yg berfaedah ke apa ke, ni tidak, menghina orang. ni lah, orang yg tak berotak gitu kan, menghina ciptaan allah. adui ~
yana b; yayyay, thanks. you very pretttyyy (:
guest:-); oh daily reader, hee. hello you! ^^
zizi; okay zizi, hello ^^ i link you up ok? (:
nylaa; eh nyla, hello pretty! :D eh, tk lupa laaah. hee hee. ok, nnt kaseh link and tag nyla! ^^
hairul; siapaa nama nyaaaa? aiyer, kambing you :P
eeilaaFIQQ; sheila sheila! :D siapa kutuk hydir? kurangajar betul, dorang jealous yg suara hydir merdu ^^ boyf sheila jahaaat, dia kacau ehhhh. hahah. btw. sheila&boyf sungguh cute dan sweet lah, sumpah! :P i like. tuh lah spammers, biarkan asalkan dorang bahagia dan puas hati. puas hati pun, bukannya dapat apaapa, dapat dosa lagi ada, bangau eh! -.- rindu sheila, meet up agaaaain! ^^ and yay! hydirrrr gi next round. *happy! and keluar? ah, yokkkkk :P missyou!
riqa; thanks syg, kaseh berterimakasih sangat kat riqa. tuh lah dorang, asal boleh hembus ajaa. aiyerr ~ yook jumpa one day? :P add kaseh kat msn lah, boleh chatchat. tapi kaseh jarang online. hee hee ^^ syg riqa sgtsgt (:
h; terimakasih (: i beli baju kat smarang kedai yg i nengok baju lawa. haha. kdkgdkg tk lawa pun i ckp lawa ^^
irra nadzyhar; kay syg, nnt i tukar (: hee hee.
mimi; (:
kaliesa; tuh lah dia. betul tuh katakata kaliesa. heee, saaaayang kaliesa sgtsgt ^^ ilyt!
sarah; thanks darling, loveyou ^^
passerby2345; thanks for th compliment (: and about me tagging myself, itu salah faham. i wont tag myself and reply 'my own tag' at my blog. isn't that stupid if i were to do that? (: and yup, what riqa&kaliesa said were true, i wont do that just to get attention. and yup, its not a weird thing if th ip address seems to be similar. i used to ban one of th hate tagger who hate tagged me and some complained that they can't tag me and th reason was because th hate tagger i banned has th same ip address as some of my blog readers. yup, i hope you dont get th wrong idea (: and pssst, sanggup eh awak check satusatunya ip address, semangat gituk :P hee hee.
rina; thanks love ^^
guest; tk, tk akan berubah. teirmakasih syg (:
bellashalina; alright love, ^^ hehee.
ninabontot; thanks sweetey ^^
oshin; pastu oshin yg mana satu? heehe :D

sorry for th late reply, and ive replied all, i guess. hee hee. sayang all. xoxo! ^_^

assalammua'laikum.



Monday, June 22, 2009 ♥

TAGS REPLIED! :D

mira; hello mira, kay linked! ^^
liya; oh, kat tamp ^^ heehee!
nisa; im happy that youre happy that im happy, loveyou! ^^
-; thanks. (:
bloghopper; thanks bloghopper. hmm, but its hard to get a good guy. hmm, once again thanks. ily, can? ^^ hehe. and i hope everything goes well for you. and no use thinking of th past, k love? be happy and smile always! :D
minmin; thanks baby! missyou and smile always! :D
chubjepon; ok awak, apape tag aja kay? tc juga ^^
nana; yes i know, hehe. linked!
nysa; ok manis. kamu sudah dilinked ^^
chubjepon; linked! hehehe.
riqa; riqasyg! usah hiraukan itu guest (:
guest; hello you. thanks and im proud to be a malay. (:
bellashalina; i link you tautau! yes, im nizam's baby :D
mimi; oh hair dye! heh, selenga eh kaseh :P kaseh dye pt salon, lastyear (:
eenah; eh eenah,hello! :P
tejaa; thanks tejaa. tejaa pretty too, linked! ^^
fiee; heee, lain kali tegur tau. tegur tau! senyumsenyumselalu jugaa! :D
fatynandriana; hello awak. awak pretty, ok ive linked you up! ^^
shila; nah, its okay shila. i dont mind. hehe. you takecare too, pretty girl :D
danial; tuh lah danial! kenapa tk ikut? haiyaak. bnyk dh lupa eh? haha. jgn lupa kaseh tau! ^^
ziana; thanks ziana, hehe. and hello! :D
zizi; zizi mana ni? ehehe. and btw, hello! ^^
nadia; alamak nadia, tk jadi keluar belajar lah nari, haa haa. bangun lewat :P

assalammua'laikum.



Sunday, June 21, 2009 ♥



i love nadia, i love zara, i love nizam, i love wan, i love today.
ok, i was lying about i love wan, wan action lah please, huak.

th plan was supposed to have an outing w just zara, nadia and myself. nizam and wan was so called 'bumped into us'. bump lah sangat -.- haa haa ^^

promised to meet at cityhall, 4pm. but guess what? i had my shower at 3:35pm! hee hee ^^ late loh, and we met up at around 5:15pm.

had our late lunch at mcd. nizam&wan came there around 6pm. unplanned meet up gitu kan. i miss nizam, i think? oh yes, i do (: attached on 9th june and met him only three times. and before attached, met him once. and before knowing him, im sure that ive bumped into him somewhere around singapore. yuuuup :D bagus kan gitu? jumpa boyfriend harihari takbagus ^_^

zara, nadia; meet up soon. thursdaaay kaaay, loves? (:

and oh, i heard nizam said that someone told him that he looks like haizad imran. hmmmm, that reminds me of someone, uh? o.O

thanks fr th day, loves. and thanks nizam(&wan) for train-ing to bedok wimme. lovesloves.

after which, met up w (bestfriend?) talktalked, camwhored, that's all. meet lagi, soon! rumah dekat, susah sangat nak jumpa -.- haiyaaaaak. channer? hee hee ^^

and boyfriend, im sorry! i love you.





































okaaaaaay, i got to go. thanks fr th tags, loves! (:
&oh, gantengnyaaa pacarku. ok bye!

assalammua'laikum.