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Being in a relationship now is just a temporary thing in life.

"You can forgive someone almost anything but you cannot tolerate everything.
We don't have to tolerate what people do just because we forgive them for doing it.
Forgiving heals us personally. To tolerate everything only hurts us all in the long run."

♡ I don't want to be th first cause there will be second and third, i want to be th only one ♡

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Friday, June 26, 2009 ♥



Real Eyes Realise Real Lies.

i beg you, let me go. i know, you've been trying your best to save this relationship. but i can't stand lies and unfaithfulness. yknw, i used to love(d) you so much, but th feelings faded when i heard something about you but you never admit your mistakes. i tried to ignore what i saw and what i heard. and th fact was, i can never stop loving you and w that, youre forgiven. ive been pretending like nothing's hurting me, and been faking a smile. you compliment girls, youve been talking about your past girlfs, its not really about jealousy but i was wondering, do you know that im actually hurt? i know, ive changed after th day i knew that youre not faithful. im sorry for all my wrong doings and my sarcasms. i have never trusted any guys in th past and now, i thought of changing but how do you expect me to trust you? its just so difficult, love. why isit so hard for you to let me go but its so easy for you to fool me?

now then i realised th difference between love and th desire of wanting someone.

i read my message history on msn, messages on tagged, messages on facebook, some blogs, inbox messages, i realised that ive hurt umpteen guys. but, i have no intentions of doing so. i cant make everyone happy if i myself didnt feel th happiness. if only they understand th reason why im trying so hard to ignore them after they had confessed their feelings. if only they understand why im trying real hard to avoid them after they gave hints about their feelings. i dont want to be accused of giving false hopes, that's all. im not being arrogant by not picking up calls or not replying text messages but im attached and i wanna stick to one, i dont want to contact other guys. deplorably to say, im not appreciated at all, never.

call me heartbreaker, call me whatever you like.

ive done alot of mistakes in th past. ive tried to change for th better. but th current problems im facing didnt give me th chance to do so. i didnt mean to control or not to give freedom. i just need you to let me go and after that, you can have back th life you used to have; late night calls w your besties/ladyfriends, friendship hugs, (&friendship kissses?). and even now, you still have your late night calls w them right? by all means, i have never assumed things anyhow or neither do i have accused you in any way. you lied, you lied, that's all on my mind right now.

th past is still haunting me, i hate this part. i see guys who never give up, trying so hard to achieve what they want eventho they're being ignored. i feel bad. i have no other choice. but why? why th one i love th most seems to ignore me? not one, not two, not three but many asked me why i got attached when im still hoping for that one, only one? even my current love asked me that question. and i just realised that ive been lying to myself. and ive been making decisions without thinking. i feel so dullard, please.

and right now, i just received a text message from love. im still thinking if i really want to go away from his life. will i regret for making that decision? im wondering what are th actual reasons? i believe, we can still improve this relationship but i just dontwant, idk why.

"im one lucky guy, how can i let you go just like that?"

is that th reason why you dont wanna let me go? baaaah. i dont know if i should believe if your love for me is true or not. i hate myself cause i can never differentiate between sweetalks and real words that came from th sincere heart. pudding head, me. stupid, me. dolt, me. dullard, me. baaaah.

"its just that whether u want or dont want to start trusting me but you dont want cause you thought every guy is the same. i may have a common thing with your ex, sorry to bring this up. but i dont go around texting or calling gals. even on msn, nah."

trust you, should i? sorry, you deserve a better one ): ily, love.

im lost, so lost. im lost, so lost. im lost, so lost.

assalammua'laikum.