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We don't have to tolerate what people do just because we forgive them for doing it.
Forgiving heals us personally. To tolerate everything only hurts us all in the long run."
i have alot to say but i dont know how to start, its about my relationship.
nizam, ive read your blog and also your previous post. yes, my mistakes, my bad. im th one who created all th problems, and in th end, i made you feel bad. i dont know, its just that i think, you have never understood me but i know, youre trying your best to do so. ive been asking for a separation but you dont want it to happen. i also dont want any bad things to happen in our relatioship and i really want this relationship to go on smoothly.
about my past. yes, i have to admit. there's part of me that still wants him back in my life for you know, he was my first love. first love is never easy to forget, i need you to understand me that. but another part of me thinks that he dont need me anymore and i had enough of being in sad and devastated. and i have decided to efface off th memories of him and me. its all th past, period.
about th post, yes im sure that everyone thinks that im referring it to my past. no, its actually about a guy who never failed to put a smile on face, he's a nice guy. i trust him eventho many thinks that he's just sweetalkings to me. if i were to put his name here, everyone will definitely say that all his words wasnt true. i know, he's a guy who could get a girl which is way better than me. but i believe that he's sincere. i dont know, or is it that sweetalks are one of my weaknesses? to th guy im referring to; all th things i said to you were all true. its been two years, (: but let us just stay this way.
nizam, im aware that youre hurt. but believe me, that is how i felt when we get attached for th first two weeks. and we both know, everything goes well during our second week in relationship. i dont know, i really think that we have to break up for good. th reason why i want a separation is because i wanna be free, that's all. i love you, yes i do. but things doesnt go like how we want it to be.
im bad, im bad, you can say that. but i think, its not th time yet for me to be in serious relationship. we're still young, that's all i have to say and i dont like being controlled. yup. i have my own life, and you have yours too. and tomorrow, im sorry that im not meeting you on our second monthsary, you know th reason why. i shall not mention th reason here, let everyone thinks that im a bad girlf who dont wanna meet her boyf on th monthsary.
im feeling so down and if you readers wanna tag me and say bad things to me, go ahead. im not going to entertain. cause i know, partly it was my mistakes too. i blog to let my feelings out, not to receive hate tags from you bad readers. im sorry, i have to be abit aggressive for now? uh-huh.
happy second monthsary in advance, dearest boyfriend.
assalammua'laikum.
