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Kaseh♥ ;i dont smoke/drink/club, thanks for passing by my blog (:

Being in a relationship now is just a temporary thing in life.

"You can forgive someone almost anything but you cannot tolerate everything.
We don't have to tolerate what people do just because we forgive them for doing it.
Forgiving heals us personally. To tolerate everything only hurts us all in the long run."

♡ I don't want to be th first cause there will be second and third, i want to be th only one ♡

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Friday, September 11, 2009 ♥

AAAAAAAAAH, MY MIND'S SO MENTALLY DISTURBED. I AM THINKING OF UNNECESSARY THINGS. WHAT IS SO WRONG W ME? I HATE THIS. SOMEONE, HELP ME. IM HAVING A BAD HEADACHE RIGHT NOW, ARGH.

WHY ARE YOU TREATING ME LIKE THIS? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? YOUVE BEEN HURTING ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN, WHY? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? WHEN YOU WANT TO GO AWAY FROM MY LIFE, I LET YOU GO. WHEN YOU WANT TO COME BACK, I LET YOU COME. NOW, WHAT?

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? YES, EVERYONE KNOWS THAT I AM DROP DEAD WANTING YOU BACK BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT YOU CAN COME AND GO AS YOU WISH. YES, EVERYONE KNOWS THAT YOU ARE TH ONLY GUY I LOVED AND WANTED SO MUCH BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN THAT YOU CAN HURT ME OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND THINK THAT I'L ALSO APOLOGISE YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN TOO.

TH REASON WHY I CANCELED TH PLAN OF WISHING TO MEET YOU SOON WAS BECAUSE I HAVE FINALLY DECIDED THAT I DONT NEED YOU ANYMORE CAUSE I'L FEEL DUMB TO KEEP LETTING YOU COME BACK AND IN TH END, YOU'L GO AGAIN. IF YOU THINK IM A GIRL WHO LIKES TO SWEETTALK, LOOK AT YOURSELF FIRST! YOUR PROMISES WERE ALL FAKE! I COULD STILL REMEMBER CLEARLY, TH CROCODILE TEARS YOU TEARED FOR ME CAUSE YOU WERE AFRAID THAT I'L LEAVE YOU BUT IN TH END, WHO LEFT WHO?! YOU SWORE THAT YOU WONT LEAVE ME BUT NOW TELL ME, WHO LEFT WHO?

YOU THINK I GOT NO FEELINGS, ISIT? STOP SAYING THAT YOU WERE ALSO HURT WHENEVER YOU HURT ME. I JUST HATE WHENEVER YOU EXPLAIN THINGS CAUSE YOU THINK THAT YOU WERE TH ONLY ONE WHO WAS RIGHT!

YOU LEFT ME, YOU LEFT ME. YOU CAME BACK, YOU CAME BACK. AND YOU GO AGAIN, GIVING ME NONSENSICAL REASONS. YOU TOLD MY FRIENDS ALL YOUR REASONS AND YOURE LUCKY CAUSE YOU SUCCEED FOR MAKING THEM THINK THAT ALL YOUR REASONS WERE ALL RATIONAL.

DO YOU KNOW HOW HURT I WAS WHEN YOU LEFT ME? THOSE MOMENTS OF EXTRAODINARY POIGNANCY. YES, TH STATE OF BEING SO DISTRESS AND SORROWS. THOSE SLEEPLESS NIGHTS. THOSE TEARS I CRIED FOR YOU. THOSE SWOLLEN EYES WHEN I WOKE UP FROM MY SLEEP. DO YOU KNOW ALL THAT? DEPLORABLY TO SAY, YOU NEVER SEEMED TO CARE AT ALL. YOURE HEARTLESS!

I JUST REALISED THAT ALL THESE WHILE, IVE BEEN MISSING AND WANTING YOU BACK WAS NOT BECAUSE OF LOVE BUT IS JUST BECAUSE OF TH DESIRE OF WANTING YOU BACK.

STOP ASKING IF I HAVE SOMEONE NEW OR AM I CONTACTING W OTHER GUYS OR NOT. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO KNOW ALL THESE. STOP SAYING YOU MISSED ME OR WHATSOEVER. I DONT WISH TO KNOW CAUSE YOU WERE NOT THERE WHEN I WAS MISSING YOU MUCH.

I HAD ENOUGH OF BEING HURT. I AM JUST TIRED THINKING OF YOU. JUST GO AWAY AND DONT EVER COME BACK. PLEASE, IM PLEADING. STOP GIVING ME STRESS. STOP ADDING ON TO MY PROBLEMS! I HAD ENOUGH. IM SICK OF ALL THESE.

PEOPLE WANT US TO BE BACK TOGETHER AGAIN. BUT YOU TOLD THEM THAT YOURE NOT INTO LOVE ANYMORE. SO WHY CONTACT ME BACK AND TELL ME THAT YOU MISSED ME AND ALL?

DO YOU KNOW THAT YOURE VERY EGOISTIC, SELF-CENTERED AND YOU THINK THAT YOURE TH ONLY ONE WHO IS RIGHT? I JUST HATE YOU.

IT HAS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR WE'VE BROKE UP. IT HAS BEEN MONTHS I HAVE NOT SEEN YOU. I HAVE TRIED TO GIVE LOVE ANOTHER CHANCE BUT I FAILED CAUSE YOU AND EVERYONE KNOWS THAT I CANT FORGET YOU. BUT RIGHT NOW, YOU KNOW THAT I AM TRYING MY BEST TO FORGET YOU, BUT WHY YOU GOT ANGRY WHEN I DONT WANT TO MEET YOU? JUST BECAUSE I WAS TH ONE WHO SAID 'LETS MEET UP SOON?' I THOUGHT I AM NOTHING TO YOU?

YOU TOLD ME THAT YOU WANNA HAVE AN OUTING W ME LIKE HOW FRIENDS DO. MAYBE I AM NOTHING TO YOU. MAYBE YOU DONT NEED ME ANYMORE. MAYBE YOU DONT HAVE TH FEELINGS FOR ME ANYMORE. MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE. BUT WHAT ABOUT ME? IF WE GO OUT LIKE HOW FRIENDS DO, DONT YOU THINK IT WILL BE DIFFICULT FOR ME TO FORGET YOU? DO YOU KNOW THAT IVE BEEN HATING MYSELF FOR BEING A DUMB CAUSE I COULDNT STOP THINKING OF YOU? I JUST DONT WANT TO THINK ABOUT TH PAST AGAIN. I DONT WANT TH SAME MISTAKES TO BE REPEATING AGAIN. YOU UNDERSTAND ME NOW? OH I FORGET, YOU NEVER UNDERSTAND ME EVEN WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER!

I BEG, DONT COME BACK AGAIN. DONT TEXT ME. GO DELETE MY NUMBER OFF FROM YOUR PHONE CONTACT NOW!

SO LONG, TAKECARE.

THANKS TO YOU, I AM NOT TH GIRL YOU USED TO KNOW ANYMORE!

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