Monday, September 28, 2009 ♥
after days being hate tagged, today shall be th day im dedicating a post to you hate taggers :)
i dont know. i just realise that im a girl w full of patiences now. alhamdullilah, ive changed. in th past, i used to get easily upset and stressed up over small matters. like for instances, being criticised and being accused for doing things i dont do.
recently, i found out that there's a fake account of me at tagged account. i would like to inform you readers that ive deleted my tagged account long long ago and "http://www.tagged.com/kasehgirl" is not me. other than that, someone's using my pictures at friendster w th name of 'iamdieya'. using my pictures is not really th main problem but i dont like th fact that she's attached w a guy using my pictures. kaseh tak mahu difitnah, itu aja. kalau dieya baca blog kaseh ni, kaseh harap dieya delete gambargambar kaseh k, (: and to th one who created th tagged account using my name and pictures, please delete it.
oh thanks to adieqpampered and nina for telling me about th tagged and friendster account ^^V
currently, i only got msn (firstname.lastname@example.orgemail@example.com) which i seldomly online, blog (kasehgoodgirl.blogspot.com) to express my feelings and not to impress anyone and lastly, facebook (firstname.lastname@example.org) to interact w friends and make new friends. yup, that's all. no other accounts; no friendster, no tagged, no myspace, no hi-5, no bearshare and etc, (:
i dont hate anyone now. perhaps, i dislike one or two for some reasons. (hate and dislike are two different things) but th ones i dislike are th opposite gender of me. but you hate taggers must be th same gender as me, i supposed? i dont see th reason why you have to hate tag me. what are th reasons for? if i have ever offended you, im seeking for forgiveness now. but if you think im a flirt, then i cant stop you from thinking that way. but you, you cant stop me from being a flirt too, right? and th reasons why you think im a flirt is because i take pictures w different guys? that is not a rational reason, my goodness. just so you know, i love taking pictures and i dont see th wrong of taking pictures w my guyfriends.
ive done alot of mistakes in th past; having boyfriend was a decision i regretted th most cause when there's jealousy, i tend to dislike and then, turned to hate. i dont like hating, i dont like having foes. i want to have a beatifically and a felicitous life, well who doesn't want? im learning to forgive and forget. i have forgiven but i cant stop disliking a couple of guys and i couldn't forget th mistakes they've done to me, totally hurtful! well, im trying to forget those times that have elapsed. how? treat like they have never existed in my life! i know im strong enough to go through these difficulties, insyaallah.
patience has its limit. till when can i tolerate w these humiliations, insults, criticisms, accusations? wahuallam, only god knows when. when will these things end? when these people has realised their wrongs and decided to repent. all i need to do now is just being patience, accept those criticisms and forgive them for i know, hating and cursing back will just worsen th situation.
sometimes i feel like cursing back but thank god, i could control my anger.
i remembered reading about Prophet Muhammad s.a.w, he has never ever in his life held any grudges on people, even if they were to curse and do harm to him. however, he actually prayed for their happiness and well-being, with sincerity. That was how devout Prophet Muhammad was. I wish and i pray to have the same genuine heart as him, may god willing.
tomorrow will always be a better day for me, for you, for everyone of us. accept th fact that life is full of ups and downs, :D