Kaseh♥ ;i dont smoke/drink/club, thanks for passing by my blog (:
We don't have to tolerate what people do just because we forgive them for doing it.
Forgiving heals us personally. To tolerate everything only hurts us all in the long run."
i've been trying so hard to be strong but i can't.. i'm in tears now.
have you ever experienced loving someone whole-heartedly but you just have to let him/her go without any good explainations? You know, it hurts when everyone thinks that you're at fault when actually deep inside.. you feel so devastating for making that sort of decision. everything happens for a reason, right? it may be easy to let go but it's difficult to move on.
i rejected those umpteen requests that wanna watch new moon w me because i wanna watch w you, just you. but up till now, i haven't watch th movie. maybe you've forgotten about our date.
im staying at east, you're staying at west. i dont mind if we can't meet often. but is it difficult to meet in th middle between east and west? maybe.. still, it's hard. but i dont mind meeting you at west.. but it seems like.. you just dont have th time for me.
we didnt meet up to spend time together.. i can understand that. so im hoping that we can text or chat on msn. but still, it's hard for you to even reply my text messages. okay, i can understand that because i am the same.
now you have your reasons for not replying, as it is due to the problems occured in your phone. okay, i understand. but before it was spoiled, isn't it th same? no reply/late replies.
so.. morning till evening.. no news from you. everyday.. i'l patiently wait for th night to come as it is th only time i can talk to you on msn. Everyday, i appear offline as i wanna chat w you, only you. but do you know that it hurts alot, waiting for hours, for th night to come.. but in the end, only half an hour of your time, you always dedicate.
i tried to understand your situation but have you tried to understand mine, at least? )':
what i need in my special one? it's not just sweetalkings that can make my heart melts. i need a special one who could be there to spend time w me ): i just hate th feeling of loneliness and neglected )':
if any of you know who i'm referring to. pleaseeee tell him that i loved him and still loving him, only him and i really do. period. (cause i donthink he reads my blog)
about next year.. i've made up my mind to either go nitec, repeat sec4 acad, take private o's or stop schooling for th mean time.
if ite.. its gonna be at west. if repeat sec4 acad, its not gonna be at bedok south sec. if private o's, it's gonna be difficult to cope. if stop schooling, it wont be long.. only for th mean time. which one, you guess? ha, secret! ^^
gonna deactivate my facebook soon. outing w girlfriends on 25th. mhmm, not to celebrate christmas but to celebrate my jayna's birthday! ;D
assalammua'laikum.
