Thursday, December 03, 2009 ♥
"Look into my eyes, you will see, what you mean to me. Search your heart, search your soul, when you find me there, you search no more... You know its true.. Everything i do with you, i do it for you. Is this love, that im feeling, Is this the love that i been searching for.. Or am i dreaming.. Dreaming of you.. The love that i cant get....through ups and down, i tried my best to be your friday night boy..But it seems so difficult for me to cope...."
yes, it was th text message you sent me yesterday....
you were there for me when i was so down and feeling devastated. you were there to listen to my sorrows, you were there to even lend me your shoulder. you were there to text me in th night, th times when i'm not able to sleep early. you were th one who was never sick of taking umpteen pictures w me. those two friday nights when i was having problem w my two pasts, it was you who cheered me up. i appreciate all those that you've done for me.
but its th emotion of intense dislike you're feeling for me right now. hatred. you're just another one who also thinks that i'm th girl who gives false hopes to guys. you're just another one who also thinks that i'm a heartbreaker. or perhaps, you're just another one that got hurt by me? no. i never had th intention to hurt you, or to make you feel sad.
i dont want these things to jeopardise our friendship. just so you know, i've always been missing you. i understand that you're busy most of th times. i'm not asking you to be there for me at all times. i'm just asking you to treat me like how a friend needs to be treated. why can't we be th best of friends? why must you be sad and hurt (when you got to know that i've fallen in love w another guy) after you have been missing for quite a long period of time? you keep on canceling plans, keep on saying you got problems. am i not your friend? why can't you share your problems w me?
i guess.. friday night boy don't exist in my life anymore. i don't want this minor problem to break our four years of friendship. but since you have decided to hate me.. i have no more say. i shall pray for your happiness, then. th memories will be kept in my heart, always.
currently listening to teman biasa by janji band.
assalammua'laikum.
