Wednesday, May 21, 2008 ♥
; Can'tLiveIfLivingIsWithoutYou -
MuhammadHairulIzwan,
ive read your post on 19may.
i cried. was touched.
i know i was wrong, i kept hurting you.
i neglected you. i ignored you.
im sorry, i've hurt you real bad.
im a bad girlf, im sorry for not appreaciating you.
im sorry to say this but,
im just afraid tht one day my love for you will fade away
without me realising it.
idk why, but i always hv the feelings tht u dont trust me.
you know whaat, i really dont deserve youu.
sometimes i wonder, why do you still love me
& keep forgiving me when my attitude is like this.
i know, the only thing tht u'l hate &never forgive me
is the day u gt to know tht im being unfaithful.
what if it really happens? hmm.
hyrul, when i remember about the past when we gt to know each other,
im really scared of losing you.
i still remember the days when i was crazy over you.
i never thought tht you would have the feelings for me too.
i still remember tht sketch you drew for me, i was so elated.
but somehow, i was dissapointed when i gt to knw tht im not e only one.
i still remember the day i met tikah at sengkang inter at 5.50am
as i know u'l be taking bus87 as well.
but still, i didnt get to see you.
&the days i went to bedok reservoir just wanted to accidentally bump onto you.
but still, i didnt get to see you.
30th may 08 will be our one year of knowing each other.
& 21st may 08, our 6monthsary.
i really want us to last forever.
but why? why problems keep coming our way?
trust me,
im not the type of girl ure searching for.
we fought over small matters like,
when you asked me out to go arcade, bowling,
i didnt want.
i know im a boring girlf.
why do u still wnna be w me?
why?
i can see tht u'l hv a bright future ahead
but me,
i dont do well in my studies,
im lazy,
&you still wanna be w me?
i just miss our laughters, &the fun we had together.
i wonder how my life would be without your love.
i wonder how my life would be without your care&concern.
i wonder how my life would be without you by my side.
&im sure tht no other guys can ever love me like how you do.
Pictures with thousands of words &memories ;

11thMarch08
; e day we watched 'the leap years' ...
hyrul, i wish to see tht hairstyle once again, iLove. (:

23rdJan08
; e day i was absent frm schl &we studied together ..

21stJan08
; pasirispark ,our 2nd monthsary ...
thanks fr tht flower, [:

30thNov08
; this was when i gt to meet you after you did your friday prayers ...
i cried when you're sending me home cos i know tt im gonna miss you.
& like, i know bad things would happen.
&yes, we then gt to meet each othe at SP after days later
,things happened &we didnt get to cntct like.. 2wks.
i wonder if you still remember all this.....

28thDec07
after my peer leader meeting, i went to your work place
&waited for your lunch time.

04 Feb 08
in e bus from MustafaCenter to PayaLebar...

21stNov07
the First ever picture we took
&the day you hold my hand
&said 'sudi tak kaseh menjadi kekasih hyrul?'

8thFeb08
you wanted to meet me before your friday prayers at abt 11plus
but i was khusyuk-ed watching tv
& so i said no, we shall just meet after your fri prayers ;D
&studied 'History'

thanks hyrul, iloveyou.
only god knows how happy i was when i received this on friendster.

18thJan08
studied chemistry.
&oh, 3 primary schl girls walked past
&said tht im cute.
hyrul was jealous! :DDD bluek!

29Nov08
eheheh terperanjat tengok gambar ni kan? ;D
ni first time hyrul mkn dpn kaseh,
beh malu! ahahahaa~

the pooh you gave me ,cos you know i love poohs (:

3rdMarch08
your birthday ,at arnold (:
&i still remember you wrote on a plate , 'kaseh syg'
using chilli sauce (:

1stMay08
outside e national library.
studied math.
Nobody gonna love me better,
Nobody gonna take me higher,
You know how to appreciate me,
&nobody ever made me feel this way,
i must stick with you forever (:
