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Kaseh♥ ;i dont smoke/drink/club, thanks for passing by my blog (:

Being in a relationship now is just a temporary thing in life.

"You can forgive someone almost anything but you cannot tolerate everything.
We don't have to tolerate what people do just because we forgive them for doing it.
Forgiving heals us personally. To tolerate everything only hurts us all in the long run."

♡ I don't want to be th first cause there will be second and third, i want to be th only one ♡

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Saturday, July 04, 2009 ♥

first love can never be forgotten. i stumbled upon reading your latest post.

i cried when i read th lyrics and i cried even more when i read th last few last paragraphs. i keep replaying that song, and im still listening to that particular song right now and my tears keep streaming down my cheeks. im crying.

my love, i hope youre okay. i dont want you to feel th sadness ive felt cause i know how its feels to miss someone we dearly love.

ive forgiven you long ago, and eventho i still dont understand why you left me, this heart can never stop loving you. i miss you.

"Only God knows how much I love Nur Kaseh and how much I hated myself for hurting such a good girl like her. I still care and I do care about you cos your the girl whom I really cares most and I've told you if I were to leave my girlfriend, I will never contact with that person anymore, but you, I still do cos the break up was I had to. Nevermind. :)"

i know, you have your reason for doing so. i'l be missing you, love. you takecare.
let's just accept th fact that its th end of us.

i can never stop tearing when i think of you.

assalammua'laikum.

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Friday, June 05, 2009 ♥



Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it have to happen
why did it all have to end

I have your arms around me ooooh like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone...

you've gone away far from my life. you left me but worry not, im still smiling and im having a felicitous life right now (: your promises are still fresh on my mind but its okay, i know i have to forget everything about you cause youre my past. i hope youre doing great :D all th best in your future endeavours, takecare.

assalammua'laikum.

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Sunday, May 03, 2009 ♥



kepergianku dari hidupmu ialah untuk kau mengerti dan meyedari kesilapmu dan keperitan yg telah aku lalui saat bersamamu namun begitu, aku akui bahawa aku juga ada kesalahan dan aku berharap semoga aku dimaafkan di atas segala tingkahlakuku yg telah menyakiti hatimu.

aku harap, alasan untuk menjauhi diri daripadamu agak munasabah dan kau akan memahami situasiku saat ini. masalah tidak akan selesai jika keduadua pihak tidak berubah tetapi jangan kau salahkan diriku kerana tidak pernah ada kepercayaan terhadap dirimu, salahkanlah dirimu kerana tidak pernah memberiku peluang untuk mempercayaimu.

aku bukan gadis yg tolol yg akan percaya dan terus bersama seorang lelaki yang mengatakan bahawa dia lebih mengutamakan kawankawan perempuannya lebih dari kekasihnya. jangan mengatakan bahawa kau masih sayang akan diriku sedangkan kau yang meninggalkanku dan tidak menghiraukanku saat aku memerlukanmu. kau juga menyebelahi mereka dan biarkan aku bersedih seorang diri.

kau lelaki yang paling aku sayang, namun kau juga lelaki yang paling aku benci dan aku juga telah memberitahumu sebabsebabnya kenapa sukar bagiku untuk melupakan segala kenangankenangan pahit bersamamu. kau belum berubah dan tidak pernah mencuba sedayaupayamu untuk berhenti melakukan pekara yang menyakiti hatiku.

dan sekarang, jangan lagi kau kembali sekiranya kau masih belum berubah. aku pernah menyuruh kau untuk membuat pilihan untuk memilih samaada mereka atau aku, namun sayangnya, pada saat itu, kau memilih mereka dan terus menghilangkan diri dan paling menyakitkan hatiku ialah kau kembali lagi saat aku telah menerima kenyataannya bahawa kau telah pergi meninggalkanku. saat kau kembali lagi, barulah aku sadari bahawa aku gagal dan tak mampu meneruskan hidup tanpamu.

dan sekarang, biarlah kita akhiri episod cinta kita. kembalilah kepadaku sebagai lelaki baru. TETAPI! sekiranya suatu hari nanti, aku telah bertemu dengan kekasih baruku, janganlah kembali untuk mengganggu hidupku lagi.

gadis yang pernah menyayangimu dengan sepenuh hatinya,
Nurkaseh.

assalammua'laikum.

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Tuesday, March 24, 2009 ♥

"A guy who have you in his life is the lucky man."
-23/03/2009 22:56

DONT SAY THAT WHEN YOURE TH ONE WHO LEFT ME! ):

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Friday, February 27, 2009 ♥



Why Don't You Love Me The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then Baby Forget About Me ,Forget About Me



Don't take too long to say I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away And out on a clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight And I need you by my side
For just one more moment For just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey And time will be the one who holds you down

Sometimes time will treat you bad Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard Please tell me you'll be strong




Telah jauh terpisah diriku dan dirimu ,dalam ruang dan waktu
Sendiriku jalani sepiku tanpa dirimu ,resahku tanpa hadirmu
Sungguh berat hatiku merasakannya

Salahku mencintai dirinya saat jauhku terpisah darimu
Dan hadirnya menyentuh hatiku ,mencintainya
Hatiku menginginkannya ,hingga runtuh setiaku kepada dirimu

Kusakiti hatimu yang tulus mencintaiku

Maaf ku tak bisa memilih dirimu karena ku terhanyut mencintai dia
Inilah salahku yang memberi ruang di dalam hatiku tuk mencintainya

May peace be upon you.

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Thursday, January 29, 2009 ♥




Disini aku masih sendiri
Merenungi hari-hari sepi
Aku tanpamu
Masih tanpamu

Bila esok hari datang lagi
Ku coba untuk hadapi semua ini
Meski tanpamu meski tanpamu

Bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
Mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini
Ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
Di tempat ini aku bertahan

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku slalu dihatinya
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Kalau ku masih tetap disini
Ku lewati semua yang terjadi
Aku menunggumu Aku menunggu

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku ada dihatinya
Aku di sini menunggunya
Masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Suara dengarkanlah aku


12 more days to my two months of breaking up w that first love ,hairul izwan (:

buat kebelakangan ini ,rasa sedih itu tidak lagi aku rasakan malahan aku sering tersenyum apabila aku terkenang saatsaat aku bersamanya. baru kini aku sadari ,itu adalah saatsaat yang paling terindah dalam hidupku yang tidak bisa aku lupakan. aku pasti ,saatsaat itu akan sentiasa di benak fikiranku dan tidak mungkin aku melupakannya. aku tahu ,aku sering mengatakan benci terhadap dirinya. namun aku salah mengerti ,dia adalah lelaki yang paling terindah yang pernah aku kenali. dan kini ,aku telah membuat keputusan untuk melanjutkan hidupku tanpanya di sisi. tidak ,ia tidak semudah yang semua sangkakan. semuanya sering mengatakan 'kaseh ,lupakan dia. kaseh bisa mendapat lelaki yang jauh lebih baik daripada dia'. tetapi mereka tidak pernah berfikir ,lelaki itu adalah kekasih pertama ku. dan aku pernah bersamanya selama satu tahun dan sepuluh hari. tidak mungkin aku bisa melupakannya dengan semudah itu. dan sekarang ,aku harus sadari bahawa dia tidak lagi menginginkan aku dan aku tidak seharusnya masih mengharapkannya. kini ,aku rela dengan kepergiannya walaupun aku tahu ,aku masih menyayangi dirinya dengan sepenuh hatiku (:

dan kini ,dengan bangganya aku ingin mengatakan bahawa semua gambarnya bersamaku tidak lagi ada di handphoneku kerana aku tidak mahu menyakiti hatiku lagi ,aku tidak mahu berterusan menangis mengenangkannya.

tetapi percayalah ,walaupun kenangan tentang dirimu tidak lagi ada bersamaku namun kenangan indah kita bersama masih tetap dan selamanya di hati. percayalah sayang (: aku harap kau juga begitu. terima kasih cinta ,atas segalanya (: dan kini ,air mataku mengalir tanpa aku sedari. tidak ,aku tidak bersedih (: mungkin air mataku hanya menandakan bahawa aku begitu merindukanmu dan aku akan gembira melihat kau gembira ,tanpaku (:

gadis yang pernah merasa bangga mendapatkanmu sebagai kekasih hatinya ,gadis yang pernah menyanyangimu dengan sepenuh hatinya. gadis yang selalu mencintaimu lebih daripada mencintai dirinya sendiri. saatsaat pahit bersamamu turut dianggap sebagai kenangan yang paling terindah yang pernah terjadi dalam hidupnya kerana setiap yang ada kaitan denganmu ,adalah sesuatu yang paling membahagiakannya ,percayalah. dan gadis itu adalah aku. aku adalah gadis yang selalu memujamu mahupun kebaikan atau keburukkanmu kerana aku tahu ,tidak ada seseorang di muka bumi ini yang sempurna. jaga dirimu baikbaik seperti mana aku menjaga hatiku (: selamat tinggal dan aku berjanji ,aku akan pergi jauh dari hidupmu dan tidak akan kembali ; kerna ku sayang kamu ,30hb oktober 2007 (:

Yang benar,
nurkaseh ,gadis yang kau kenali pada 31hb mei 2007.

assalammua'laikum.

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Wednesday, December 10, 2008 ♥



it seems like you're treating this relationship as a game ,whoa.
broke up &said that you'l come back.
came back &said that you'l never leave me anymore
now ,you're doing th same thing again ,w th same old reasons.
takecare hairulizwan.

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Tuesday, December 02, 2008 ♥



hairulizwan ;
i guess ,you dont need me anymore uh?

well ,its 03:41am now
&ive beeen waiting for your msg since justnow.

msn ; you left without telling me ,kan?

nehmind tc ,i'l text you when im okaay.
cause thats what you want me to do (:

so yeah ,you dont have to text me tmr ~

takecare baby.

tell me if you really dont need me anymore ,i'l understand
kaseh akan pergi &tkkn kembali ,k? bye

tapi jangan laah kau salah erti ,ku tak mahu hubungan kita terhenti ~

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Monday, December 01, 2008 ♥



im sorry for not being a good girlfriend
kau ku sayang ,selalu ku rindu

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Friday, November 21, 2008 ♥

Happy One Year Anniversary ,♥Dearest HairulIzwan♥ (!)

i dont want to meet you today
&im pretty sure ,you know th reason why!

im stupid ,really stupid for still loving you.
&Hairulizwan : you know ,everyone knows
; i just couldn't stop loving you ,that's why!

i still love you like how ive loved you from th v start!
; please get that in your head!

&Hairulizwan ,i dont need your sarcastic words ,please.
im just tired of being hurt ,i swear!

melarikan diri daripada masalah? ; itu yg sering hairul lakukan ,kan?
baiklah ,kaseh juga akan berbuat sedemikian ; takperlu jumpa&berhubung (:

i just want you to ;
treat me like how a boyfriend should treat her girlfriend
,that's all!

dont just think about yourself ,alright?

♥i miss you like crazy♥ (!)

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Tuesday, November 04, 2008 ♥















b ,i had a greatime w you ,swear :D

♥Hairulizwan was late so i went bugis s. to buy th bag i want
&also to watson to buy tht silkygirl perfume ,alone.

then my b merajuk sehh sebab dia nk shop nan i sgt
,merajuk buruk pulak tuh ,*selaaap you then you know! =P

watched movie ,Max Payne &lunched at Long John
w my ♥exboyf/♥ayulbbybhusyuksyg :P

b had promised tht he'l nvr cntct any of his ladyfriends
&will never go out w them anymore.

,dia promise ,i tk paksa pon :P ,lau nk kua ,kua luh
siapa la kaseh ni kn nk mnghalang (:

kaseh masih singleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008 ♥

seandainya kita masih bersama
,hari ini adalah hari yg amat penting bagi kita berdua
kerana tarikh hari inilah yang pertama kali kau sentuh tanganku
dan bertanya adakah aku sudi menerima kau menjadi kekasihku buat selamanya.
tetapi itu hanyalah katakata pada sebelas bulan yang lalu
,kini semuanya telah berubah.
hanya ingin kau tahu juga ,kita sudah setahun dan tujuh bulan berkenalan.
kadangkala aku berfikir ,selama ini ,di manakah kedudukanku di dalam hatimu?
mungkin aku pernah mengungkapkan kata benci padamu
,tetapi itu tidak benar. aku tahu ,aku selalu mengikutkan perasaan.
tahukah kau hidup aku kini seperti tidak tentu arah ,aku merinduimu.
aku merindui dakapanmu. aku selalu bertanya pada diriku
,adakah rindu di hatimu seperti rindu yang ku rasakan?
kenapa kau lebih mementingkan temanmu daripada seseorang gadis
yang amat mencintaimu dan yang telah bersamamu selama sepuluh bulan?
aku berani bersumpah ,aku tidak pernah menduakanmu.
aku berani bersumpah ,aku mecintaimu dengan sepenuh hatiku.
aku juga berani bersumpah ,tanpamu aku akan merasa kehilangan
,tanpamu aku sepi ,tanpa cintamu aku resah
,tanpamu hidup ku seperti tidak bermakna.
tanpamu ,hidupku seperti tidak sempurna.
dan aku tanpa cintamu umpama layang-layang terputus talinya.
aku tidak menyangka bahawa kau sanggup berbuat begini kepadaku.
hinakah aku ini? jijikkah aku ini pada padangan matamu?
masihkah kau ingat janjijanji kita bersama? berjanji sumpah setia
,berjanji tidak akan meninggalkan satu sama lain?
berjanji tidak akan berpaling dari satu sama lain?
hanya ingin kau tahu,aku di sini masih mengharapkan kasih
dan sayangmu kerana hanya padamu aku serahkah segala rasa cintaku
,kerana kau yang pertama telah membuka hatiku
untuk merasakan betapa indahnya hidup bercinta.
kau umpama sebutir bintang yang aku puja
,antara sejuta ,kau bersinar.
ini bukanlah katakata manis ,ini adalah katakata yang datang dari hati.
percayalah ,kau tidak pernah hilang dari ingatanku.
dan bayanganmulah yg selalu setia menemaniku.
dengarlah lagu karena ku sayang kamu
,setiap katakata yang ada pada lagu itu dituju hanya untukmu.
aku pernah berjanji bahawa aku tidak akan kembali kepadamu
dan juga tidak akan lagi mengganggu hidupmu lagi.
mungkin itu adalah yang terbaik buatmu
dan keputusan yang muktamad bagiku.
seandainya kita berjumpa sekali lagi pada lembaran yang lain
,percayalah hatiku sentiasa terbuka untuk kau kembali padaku.
hanya kau yang bisa memberiku cinta yang tulus &suci.
hanya kau juga yang bisa memberi aku kebahagiaan.
selamat tinggal &sayangkamu.

&selamat 11bulan yg tidak kesampaian ,ayulbabybhuchuksyg :D

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008 ♥



those words &promises that you told me months ago...
"kasehkusyg..there's one thing i need to confess to you,each day i feel special. i feel grateful and thankful to have you part of my life. i felt touched and heartfelt as how you are towards me,your divine love and care really makes me strong and feel that life is beautiful. i cried in silent as i'm really afraid to lose you. i can't imagine life without you. i love you dearly and blissful. just a slight mistake and make you cry makes me regret and don't forgive myself. syg..if ever i had hurt your feelings before,i'm sorry. i truly am syg..just so you know that my love for you won't fade,never!"

"syg..i'm a guy who keeps his promises and true to his words. :D hyrul da janji pada syg kan yg hyrul takkan tinggalkan syg? dan hyrul pun telah berjanji bahawa kasihsayng hyrul pada syg tidak akan berubah? syg..hyrul pegang pada janji hyrul dan hyrul tidak akan mungkir janji. :D syg, syg nak tawu tak? setiap hari dan waktu hyrul tersenyum lebar bahagia setiap detik kerna hyrul mempunyai seorang gadis yg jelita dan setia dan dialah kamu sayang :D hyrul sebenarnya takut kehilangan syg tau. setiap hari hyrul berdoa agar hubungan kita kekal berpanjangan. setiap detik hyrul memikirkan bagaimana hendak membuat syg bahagia dan menanwan hati syg agar syg terus menyayangi hyrul. satusatunya yg membuat hyrul bahagia adalah kehadiran syg. walaupun jauh kita berada namun dekat di hati dapatku rasakan. kasehku syg, hyrul berniat ikhlas dan jujur dlm menyayangimu. duhai syg, hyrul benarbenar berharap bahawa katakata hyrul ini dpt syg ketahui betapa sayangnya hyrul pada syg. ikhlas dari hati hyrul benarbenar menyayangimu syg :D hyrul takbedek taktipu takdusta :D"

"loving you is like taking care of a glass heart. a heart that is so fragile that a touch may leave roots of cracks. its a heart that no one else may ever replace or recreate. its a heart that is so divine that there is no replacement for it. infact, there is no any good description words that could describe its beauty. the heart is so pure and true that it became an obsession. it became a trance to the eye. calm to the mind. warm to the heart. taking good care of it is unpredictable just like loving you. i dont want to ever hurt you in any ways. i want to keep you safe. i want to be always there for you. and you, you became an obsession to me. your kindness trance me. you words ease me. and your love warm me. kaseh,noone in the world can ever replace you in my heart. you! reside in my heart. yes,only you kaseh, only you. hyrul sayang kaseh sgtsgt! muah! :*"

"my friend once asked me,'what is the most thing i love and miss about you' and i said,'i like kaseh, i love the way she smiles at me esp when her eyes squeeze and her dimple pop up HAHA her pamper voice, her walk, being with her, happiness with her, happy when she says she loves me and miss me. life is so beautiful when there is you and me. i still remember those time when she keeps sending her sweet msges to me. i'll be rolling around with craziness. esp her imy msges. haha i miss her long hair hahaha i miss looking at her and she looks at me paiseyly hahaha i miss eating longjohn with her cos she will feed me the fries. i miss her big hug and kisses on my cheek. i miss kaseh spending her time with me. i miss her hmphhmphhmph cute taak? haha i miss all about her that i'm willing to go where she is and meet her for awhile even though it is a few seconds. i miss holding hands with her. i miss her alot! :D"

"my love for you don't stop and it will never will! cos my heart is with you! kasehsygkasehsyg! i love with all my heart and i will never leave you! i swear!"

and when he thinks that he is not a good boyf (when actually he was)..
"i know that i've not been a good boyfriend to you. i know that i have illtreated you. all this while ive been trying to be the best for you but somehow failed to. im selfish and i dont think of your feelings and needs sometimes i have to do what i think is but it may not seems right in others eyes im sorry for all the burden and stress that have been pounding in your life. i know that your stress due to me im the cause of it even if you say no i still say yes cos its me that cause you all the troubles and making your smile fade away. your face tells the stories of your depression. i know ive pushed you too hard and i failed to understand you. i want a blissful relationship with you. i want you to have a good sight of love but all i know is now is that i've ruined the sets ive tried to achieve. its not your fault for all this its mine and im really sorry for the causes ive made ):"

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008 ♥


ninth monthsary ; look at the clock! its 12am! :D you know what's this date about right? yes! you know that i know that it'll bring us memories to our first day where our love begins! :D oh and btw! video tuh hairul do ikhlas la! hairul waited for kasehnya msg tau so while waiting! hairul do la Hahaha Kaseh suka taaaK? Haha and kaseh i'm excited to meet you tomorrow,i'm going to embrace you whole and say to you,'iloveyou'SayangKamu Sgtsgt! TerSgtsgt! VerytheSgtSgt! And youmeanalottome! Nurkaseh,youareforeverloveandalwaysbelovedbyme(: and i promise you happiness that you wanted. i will keep my promise,trust me k Syg? Janji kiss pls! Hahaha ;) Sayangkamu laaaa! HAHAHA AND i cant wait for tml! bsk kita study at where eh? Haha


eighth monthsary ; happy 8thanniversary to you too kaseh,kaseh on every 21st of the month i will never forget instead im counting it. Each memories never been forgotten and the promises i've made never have i ever forget. i do remember my promises kaseh but i'm sorry that i have to break it due to my reasons. kaseh i do want to be with you again seriously but i do but but not now. kaseh,i cried yearning for you too but i keep it to myself. i miss you so much that i keep thinking of you and keep my phone near me looking at it whether there's a msg from you. kaseh,the promises i've made are true not lies pls understand that i don't make false promises. i'm sorry that we have to be in our separate ways but deep inside me there's still you and me. it's okay if you don't believe in me anymore just so you know that the moments i had with you are the sweetest and lovely memories i've ever had.



seventh monthsary ; tawukah anda skg jam berapa? ya skg tepat pukul 12pagi ya mlm sabtu bkn mlm jumaat dan ini bermakna malam anniversary kita! hahaha yg ketujuh! yay! syg! baby! honey! my love! my sweetheart! my jantung! my heart! my only kaseh! happy anniversary! yay! loveyou lots! and imforeveryours! syg! i will never let you down. i will be with you when your ups and down. i heart you will all my heart and soul cos i care for you! with all the loves i lavish to you as i dearly love you whole. i love you and will always do! :D sayangkamu sgtsgt muahmuah! hugs! biggest hug in the universe! muahmuah! its all meant for you! :D



sixth monthsary ; Happy anniversary yg keenam bulan Syg! :D i love you the rest of my life! when i'm with you every second counts cos i miss you! whenever we are apart, as i need you! to be here always by my side. you are the angel that sent from above. when i close my eyes all i see is a blur crowd but only you exist in a clear vision of mine. in my mind there is only you i keep on thinking about. each day and night without you i dont feel enought nothing feels right cos i miss oyu and i really want to be with you. this is the night that will never fail to reminisce about our first holding hands,out first hug.our first promises,our first promise. your fist love and my last. and the most important moment was when i kneel to you and asked for you,'sudi tak kaseh menjadi kekasih hyrul?' everytime i reminisce it. i smile widely proud to have you as my beloved sweetheart. kaseh..itrulyloveyou!



first-fifth monthsary ; old phone ):

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008 ♥



currently chatting on msn ;

looking at th time
,its already 21st of oct now (:

danish is th first one to wish me on msn ;
'HAPPY 11 MONTHSARY TAK MENJADI KASEH !'
as we were chatting ,i forced him to wish me. HAHA.

&danialsyafiq!
goodluck for tmr's eng paper ok bestf?
bestf ehhhh ,HAHAH

aahahhaha ,so random.
im so bored ,its 2am now.
cant sleep ,but sleeping soon i guess.
&im not gg to school tmr ,bye!

swear ,i love ZARA &am missing TYQA
tyqa ,cepat pulaaaaaaaaang laa syg ):
&thanks zara ,you understand me ,ily (:

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Monday, October 20, 2008 ♥



as you know ,you were my everything
&i used to love you more than anything else.
those promises are still fresh on my mind
but like people say ; promises are meant to be broken
&so ,our promises really have been broken now
&youre no longer on my mind.
i still remember the day you hold my hand
saying that you wanted to be mine forever
but it seems like its not happening.
for now ,let fate decides everything.
i hope youre happy on what im about to say which is
; i dont care if you wanna go out w your girlfriends (:
i wont feel the jealousy anymore cause seriously
,i dont have the feelings for you anymore
cause like what ive posted the other day
,tmr on 21st ; you'l be out of my mind
but im glad that you're already out of my mind now.
just so you know ,you will always be my sweetest memories :D

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Sunday, October 19, 2008 ♥



as promised ,i wont disturb you anymore.
i know youre having a great life right now ,im happy for you.
im feeling so devastated ,im crying alone.
luckily tyqa/naytee was online ,wanted to talk to her on the phone.
but it seemed like she was busy.
im nothing to everyone. im here not to seek attention
,im just letting out my feelings.
hairul ,i just need comfirmation.
if you really dont want me in your life anymore ,its okay w me.
still, ive to learn to accept the fact kan.
and please teera ,i have never hated you.
it was just that
,i dont like you being hairul's bestie cos th way you treat hairul is too much.
i dnt like th way you put on your blog saying that
you love your hairulbestie &btw ,that was months ago
,you have so many guyfriends ,why hairul is one of them? :(
and hairul has marfua &teera who really cares for him.
its good to know that.
&teera ,all this while i treated you as my dearest bestie.
idk whats your motive by tagging hairul like that.
yes ,it hurts me alot dear.
hurting me is your motive? then ,you have succeed.
&hairul ,kaseh tak sangka hairul tell teera yg kaseh
berpurapura kwn dgn teera eh. sampai hati hairul. hairul batu api.
swear ,tidak pernah kaseh berniat mcm gitu.
kaseh tidak kisah kalau hairul asyik menyebelahi teera
,tapi jangan ckp buruk pasal kaseh laa hairul ,kaseh merayu.
yg pasal break ,mmg kaseh yg bersalah. all because of jealousy.
tapi sumpah ,kaseh tk benci teera. jahat sangat ke kaseh ni? ya allah.
hairul ,kaseh tidak akan datang lagi dalam hidup hairul.
hanya ingin hairul tahu ,mengenali diri hairul
adalah sesuatu yang paling terindah dalam hidup kaseh
dan tidak pernah akan kaseh kesali.
kaseh sayang hairul ,sepenuhnya. percayala.
& kaseh tidak pernah bersikap curang terhadap hairul.
kaseh tk paham ,asal bnyk orng buat mulut yg kaseh ni tk faithful la
,peluk jantan lain la ,kalau benci kaseh ,tk usah la buat cerita. haai.
kalau benci sgt ,bunuh la kaseh ni.
hairul ,kalau kaseh banyak buat salah ,kaseh mintamaaf.
&sampai hati eh ,teera tak bilang kaseh yg hairul ajak teera jumpa.
ini ke kawan? kaseh takkan ganggu hairul lagi.
and i promise i wont come back. i love you &i will always do.

always my ♥ayulbabybhuchuksyg.

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Saturday, October 18, 2008 ♥



i guess ,this will be th last four post about you.
after 21st ,you will be out of my mind ,i promise.
th memories are fading bit by bit ,seriously (:

last night ,i listened to all th recordings on my phone.
it was your voice that i listened to :D

remember ,you sang for me?
&th last part i said ,"kalau kaseh rindu kaseh dgr sebab kaseh record!"
hahaha ,yes i suddenly miss you yesterday. yesterday je. (aku tipu)

&i took th trouble to jot down th lyrics you sang for me (:

maafkan aku seandainya aku telah membuat kau menangis
maafkanlah aku seandainya aku telah banyak melukakan ,hatimu
tak berniatku ingin untuk membuat kau derita
bukan sikapku ,bukan caraku untuk menyakiti ,hatimu

another song ;

tahukah kau betapa aku menyayangimu
tahukah kau hanya ku sayang &hanya ku cinta
tahukah kau begitu istimewa buatku saja
tahukah kau selalu bermain di fikiranku
hanya mu yg satu ,tiada yg kedua

three more post about you on th next three days :D


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Friday, October 17, 2008 ♥



i know ,i was never th best for you. &yes ,its really over.
pretty sure that youre having a better life now
cause you dont have to tolerate w this horrendous attitude of mine ,anymore.
sentiasa merinduimu*

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Friday, October 17, 2008 ♥

&i can't fake this smile ,anymore.
sorry i lied ; i wasnt smiling &but was crying.
i miss you

Tikahsyg kata ,org yg penyabar disayang tuhan (:

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